So, today started out well, but ended as a result of yet another faux pas of mine.
I had been thinking of all the ways I could please K, to show Him how much I truly desired His dominance and how enthusiastic and invested I was in my submission to Him. So, it seemed like a perfect idea to come to His house early so that when He woke up, the first thing he'd see is his naked, wide-eyed submissive presenting her cuffed hands to Him. But there were a lot of things this submissive didn't think of in the midst of her own desires. Such as K's convenience, the timing, the weather, the money, the transportation, or any logistics that would determine it possible to make the long trek to His house, finish homework, and make it to class on time and still have ample time for K to enjoy you the way you imagined Him doing in the first place. I didn't consider that K would be very tired at that time, and so woke him up when he'd planned to sleep in, as He's currently recovering ffrom a sickness. I should know that he gets rather annoyed at these sorts of things. I also didn't consider my own hardship due to my inefficiency. I only considered my own opinion of how I treated myself, and not how K would like me to treat myself. Even though I told myself that I was fine with it, He couldn't accept me walking out in the hot weather for 9 blocks, and so had to wake up early to drive me over. I didn't think everything through, so my surprise ended up having completely the opposite effect of what I'd intended. I let my enthusiasm curb my logic.
It can be a bit of a struggle to let go of how we think we should submit, and just do it how they want can't it?
ReplyDeleteYeah. It's interesting because figuring out what they want and how they want it is indeed one of the biggest aspects of our submission.
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