Silver Lined Vagina

This goes a little outside of the topic of this blog, but I feel it it does have some relevance and merit to the subject. I have spoken before of problems with my vagina, making K and I unable to have sex for most of our relationship. I could probably count on my fingers and toes the number of times we've had sex over the past year. The problem was that having sex, or any sort of touching down there, just simply hurt. It burned, it stung, it ached. I've had my share of sexual experiences with no problems in the past, but this problem has sprung up just for the best man I've ever dated and loved the most, ironically. The problem had recently let up, so we started exploring down there, and bang, the problem has come back.

I've done a bit of research, and what I have is simply known as vulvodynia, where the entrance to the vagina burns and itches, sometimes on contact, sometimes just randomly. There is no known cause or cure. I've been to numerous doctors, done a battery of tests, and have tested negatively for all common vaginal bacterial infections, viruses, and STD's last time I checked. K believes it could be some unknown bacterial infection. A number attribute it to birth control, others to chronic yeast infections, some to HPV, all of which I've experienced in the past. I believe this could possibly lead to nerve damage and erosion of the skin, hence the burning and stinging on contact.  Even so, it's nice to have a name associated with it and that I'm not the only woman suffering from it.

I had been SO HAPPY to have my libido come back as a result of a healthy vagina. And I plan to work my way around this condition so that I can keep it, because it's deepening my love for K in a way I thought I'd been cheated out of. In my particular state, there is a silver lining. Even without the lust aspect of our relationship, we're still able to function, and very happily too.  A D/s relationship strengthens our bonds in other ways. We're honest with each other and we strive for happiness, making the effort and hard work to push through our problems. K said even if both my ass and vagina were permanently closed up, he would still keep me. It's so incredibly comforting to feel so secure in this kind of relationship. I realize how incredibly lucky I am to have that and only hope for other people to find it as well. I want to cherish each moment with Him because He truly is the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I couldn't imagine it happening with anyone else.

The lesson here is that when you have a problem that won't seem to go away, there are still ways you can fix it or deal with it. You can research, come up with your own solutions, and find ways to enjoy life despite any unfortunate circumstances. Submission and Love do that for me, and I heartily encourage others to find their happiness in whatever best suits them. :)