Good choices! ^_^

Today went much better than the past few days. Last night, I was set on looking at every decision I made as an opportunity. I know I know the right choices, I’m a smart girl, K and I both know it, and it's simply a matter of making that choice and sticking with it. That was my goal today, and I ended up getting significant internal rewards. I look at each decision, as well as major mistakes as a chance to improve, and should do this every time I get punished. Becoming sad and mopey about it doesn't help at all.  The following consists of all the decisions I made today.

     I woke up at 10, a little late. I woke up earlier at around 8, but went back to sleep, so I feel a little badly about that.  I am often tempted to get any sleep I can in, however.... If it gives me more time to do other things, then I should wake up early instead of being lazy and sleepy. It will feel really good to have gotten up so early. I went straight into Nadu, which is now something I’m remembering every day, which I’m really happy about, I would always forget and I would get a demerit for that daily. I then spent some time looking at my phone to see when the bus would come so that I would only use a certain amount of time given to me. I usually don't, and I end up leaving the house willy nilly whenever, not knowing the time.    

     I wanted to leave early for a couple errands, but then saw my dog looking forlornly at me as I went out the door. She’s rarely ever walked, and everyone is gone during the day. I considered the amount of time I had until my class started at 1:30. That would give me two hours to do whatever. I considered walking her all the way to this one place that sells the loofas I really liked, but it was kind of far away and I didn't know how long it would take, really, and it was risky and a hassle, since I'd have to walk her all the way back and I would have less time to do other things. So I gave up on that and decided to just walk straight to the nearby grocery store. I ended up making the next bus to school less than hours later. She was happy and I had more time. :)

I needed to withdraw some money, so I stopped halfway at the bank. I was tempted to buy a drink at Starbucks so I could get change for the next bus. But after considering all the costs and benefits, I decided to just ask for change. The woman was accommodating, and not annoyed as I had feared. The universe often rewards me for making the right choices, in addition to the good feelings I get knowing that my good choices please K. ^_^

There is one little planning faux pas I did make. There is a Kinkos and Bank down at my school, and it would have been better to ride the bus straight down there instead instead of having to pay. Luckily, this guy let me go for free as well, but that's irrelevant. I reasoned that the first Kinkos was larger, and so would possibly have more selection, but I realize that they're a chain and so would probably have the same products there, and I should be saving money first and foremost. >< I do feel badly about that.    When I got to school, I had an hour to spare, and so read some Fate/Stay Night before class. I also bought the cheapest, but fairly good quality sketchbook, so now I can start drawing again! I'm going to be really careful with my drawings this time around, trying to make a good piece out of every sketch. :) I fear for the amount of eraser marks though... >.> 

After I got out of class, I planned to go straight home, remembering my mistake from yesterday. I did think about anything else I had planned to do today, and remembered that I wanted to go to the craft store to make a special bracelet that will help me with choice making, which I plan to double as a token of my love for K. However, I got K’s text telling me of some assignments He wanted me to do. K wants me to be more academic with my writing so that I can practice for any school or work related job. I rarely revise my work, and so He wanted me to work on doing that.

Also, I've been using vaseline on my butt twice daily per K's instruction, and it's been healing nicely.  I've also been doing 50-100 kegels daily, hopefully I'll see some improvement. I’m proud of myself that I’m finally adopting these habits with the advice and guidance of K.

      He was on my mind all day. It's gotten to a point where everything I do, I do for Him. Even in the mundane things that have nothing to do with Him. He makes everything so meaningful. <3 K, your loving guidance and approval means so much to me. I love you so much.