When trying to come up with something to write about, especially when I don't have a pressing issue, I often look to websites like Submissive Guide and the Castle Realm. They always have a ton of helpful articles on a ton of different subjects dealing with BDSM and servitude. When looking through them I try to find something that's relevant to what I've recently dealt with or considered. One article that caught my eye was "How to Serve a Self-Sufficient Dominant" by lunaKM. It got me to thinking of the ways in which I've tried to deal with this problem on how to serve when one's Dominant typically does most things Himself. K is extremely self-sufficient. If there's a problem, he finds ways to fix it in a very quick and efficient manner. I've never been trained in completing anything quickly; in fact, my parents supported the mantra, "slow and steady wins the race". In contrast, K's mother was very fast, which trained Him to be very quick in order to keep up. Often, K beats me to the chase when something needs to be done. He believes that the person who gets a job done more quickly and efficiently should be the one to fix a problem, even though both parties may have the knowledge to solve it. Whenever I do get a chance to do something for Him, I'm overjoyed. (My best memory of that is when He asked me to go buy Him His favorite lead pencil downtown; I felt great for the whole trip.) K is aware of my desires to serve and what I get out of it, as well as my tendency to be slow, and so requires and urges me to do things more quickly in order to train me in that regard. Often he'll ask me to look up directions or acquire some scissors. He wants me to become self-sufficient and efficient enough to help Him in the small things He does.

      Lately, I've been getting much better, as I've been keeping an active mind and focus. I've been able to beat Him to some things, such as providing a web link to a problem we encountered before He had thought of it. In the kitchen, I was able to provide Him with utensils before He asked for them. I've made it my own goal this week to work on becoming efficient in my own tasks and actions when I'm at alone at home in order to practice and improve myself as well. My recent progress has shown a lot of my potential and that I may be on a closer level to K than I thought. It's unlikely that I'll obtain His level of intelligence (He has amazing Japanese samurai genes, as well as years and years of self-training, not to mention His good upbringing) but there are so many ways in which I can help Him as well as myself. 

     I've discovered the power in a "woman's touch". He asked me to help him clean His room. By now I have a pretty good idea of where everything goes but still have a lot to learn in that regard. His room is generally pretty darn efficient and organized but sometimes things get mixed up, as most rooms do. He disappeared for a while so I took it upon myself to reorganize half of His room. I had forgotten how enjoyable it really is to do that sort of thing. When He came back, I was overjoyed to see how pleased He was. He said the way I had organized everything made everything look very neat, like a girl had touched them. If someone came in to His room, they might notice a difference. I want people to look at Him, to see what He has for a lunch perhaps, and realize that He has a loving girlfriend/submissive taking good care of Him. <3