Gahh, I knew it. I knew how happy I would feel if I finished everything early on. I've done my homework ahead of time and listened to my daily hypnotism files early, and as I search blogs out of pure interest, expanding on my fantasies, I already have one blog post ready, and this is my second one today. :)

I just wanted to mention how good a nice belt slapping on my behind does me. Yesterday K tried it with me, and it was amazing. I would LOVE it if I could start every day like that. It makes me feel so exhilarated and I want to get up and do things. It could become as frequent as my morning cup of coffee but spiked with heroine or whatever drug makes you feel on top of the world. Because that's how getting smacked and flogged makes me feel.

Who knew that I'd be so cut out for this kind of thing. I always felt like a bit apart from people who engaged in the lifestyle. I'd think, "Mm, I'm not sure if I'd really be cut out for that type of thing, it seems interesting though..." I never knew that BDSM was so much more than just whips and chains and pain tolerance. It's a sense of belonging, of feeling owned, and this inherent desire to please and put your Dominant's desires before your own in the process. If I had known that, I would have recognized it as such a perfect solution so much earlier. However, the danger in that is that I might have sought out and found a Dominant before I met K. So all in all, I'm so glad things panned out the way they did. The universe must really love me, for I am so lucky.